Friday, 5 August 2011
My Bipolar Friend
I had to live with it in a previous life: Depression - I feel sorry for the people living with the depressed
Even though I do not have the Big D (and never will), I sometimes get the downers, or go depro for a while. We all go there! What makes the difference, is that I can talk myself out of it... But I get an inkling of how it must be to suffer from depression.
I have a bipolar friend, and it has become increasingly difficult to talk to her. I have been phoning her for months where she do not pick up the phone, or return my calls. When I finally get to speak to her, I can hear that she is reticent in exchanging any information about her well-being. I do not know if she is in a UP or DOWN phase, but usually the UP phase is noticable by lots of creative thinking, no sleeping and lots of over-the-top ideas! The DOWN phases I usually don't know about it, only after the fact...
I find it very frustrating, and I have given up to try and talk to her. But I will always be here when she wants to talk again...
I want to say to her:
- I value your friendship!
- I miss you!
- I am really interested in your well-being, and when I ask about how everyone is doing, I am really concerned about you!
- I miss having a conversation with you!
I will be here, waiting for that call...